A wake up call !

There is a time to make things happen and there is a time to let things happen. But one should recognise the blurred line between the two. Pressing the right button on right time is the essence of successful life. Many a time, "TIME" is the biggest panacea for our problems. It becomes worthless to loggerhead against time. Going "hammer & tongs" can spoil the situation. Time set right all your problems / worries. But every time you cann't stick to this strategy. Punching on right time is all important. For some people this comes naturally without concious effort. For them everything happens on right time. Their lifes are like perfectly designed step by step even without their concious effort. I call their life a "Plain Vanilla" life i.e with no complexities. (I invented the word from "Vanilla call option). I envy them.

Averting some decissions may be temporary solution to your problems. But at times you finally have to "ring the bell". Some intricating knots of life, only YOU have to solve. You cann't pat your heart everytime by saying "ALL IZZ WELL" . As always I am in dizzy everytime the moment to take crucial decision comes. Why the hell, to every decision i see flip side simultaneouly. I have learned to put quantitative weights on evaluating every situation but lack enough vividity to have qualitative weight. Once the time is gone, it is incorrigible.

...And I wish you all to learn quantitative & qualititative methods of putting weight to your problem and solve the equation. My wake up call is alaramed ! Com'on Kairav snooze option will no longer do......

Playing "Resolution" game

Its hard if not at all impossible to stick on resolutions. For me its like conquering Mt. Everest. Unlike everyone I make resolutions almost very frequently & break it even more hastily. Making & breaking resolutions turned out to be my favourite game. Giving it a rational thought, laziness is solely the culprit for back tracking any resolution. It has eventually turned into my biggest weakness. Doesn't matter "There's always I will do next time excuse"!

Some of the resolutions that has featured continously (like long running shows of all time great movies) in my list ever since I learnt to make resolutions are: -

1. Work out & built a perfect shape body. Exercise. Realized to put on some weight and groom the body. This is what I craved since I was half-pant wearing tod.

2.Waking up early :- The resolution I make almost everyday! Due to my everlasting lazyness it has turned out a serious joke uptill now.

3. Try to bathe everyday & put some concious effort on looks. Like wearing decent clothes, take care to shave regularly, have some facials (I believe i can look fairer) etc...etc...Reason- I always knew with your intelligence or character you can never make any girl fall for you...Isn't so???

4. Read & refer my study books loaded in shelves before pests eats it away or either it gets alien to my memory.

5. Learn to cook before it gets too late. Your culinary skills can help you live without getting married. I can atleast eliminate out this shittiest reason to get married. (Yaah people get married for such reasons too! Strange??)

6. Decide to hogless, sleepless and work more. (Getting miserably failed everytime)

7. To prepare seriously on some comp exam. My mom always nags me on my lazyness & bicker me that i could have done lot better in life, If i would hv shed my lazyness & work towards some goal. And I even believe it :-(

8. ********************************************(So what?? I keep patting my mind everytime I break this resolution, "Everyone do that"!)

9. Learn to drive car. (Perhaps easiest resolution I could figure out in my list. I know it will be achieved)

10. Working out on speach & overcoming disorder. (I know i can do it without any therapy)

11. Be in touch with family relatives & learn to socialize with them. My alienation in family circles is appalling. Some hv already started to give "Who the fuck are you" type of expressions on their faces when I produce fake smile on any functions.

12. At last to follow my resolution has also became one of my resolution. (Oxymoron! Lol..)

13. Roz kehta hun ke bhul jauga use aur roz ye baat bhul jata hun.

Being flippant, I have crossed every limit of not sticking on any resolution. I hope some day I get hold of my life & succeed in "actually" following my resolutions. Till then - Never mind this time, the next time ;-)

P.S: - As per the advice of Jayesh, Picture is loaded in Blog. Hope it turns out nice.

To -

ONE word is too often profaned
For me to profane it,
One feeling too falsely disdain'd
For thee to disdain it.
One hope is too like despair
For prudence to smother,
And pity from thee more dear
Than that from another.

I can give not what men call love;
But wilt thou accept not
The worship the heart lifts above
And the Heavens reject not:
The desire of the moth for the star,
Of the night for the morrow,
The devotion to something afar
From the sphere of our sorrow? - P.B.Shelley

The beautiful poem is all time favourite of mine since my schooling days. The poem reflects the idealistic philosophy of poet for the word "Love". Poet know's he cann't get his love. It is like moths desire to reach sky or the night (darkness) craving for light. Still he loves like a worship which even heaven cann't reject. Its like striving after unattainable. Soo romantic. This reminded me of my friend Rishi telling with his peculiar tone, If someone loves us, we are lucky that we are "lovable". To accept his/her love is a different thing.

"To Do" List

This is something close to my heart. I know this is emulating topic from "Things to do before I die" (Dasvidaniya fame) but personally believe everyone should give a thought on it. My spark is loosing its aura after quiting formal studies. Hence made it a thought to write on the topic. Wishes are something which can keep one going. So here is my wishes cum "To Do" list of my life.

1. To keep my mom happy for the rest of her life.(Challenging task)

2. To quit my present job & have enough money to follow the work of my interest. (First of all to articulate my interest is a different thing.)

3. Have one vactaion to Honolulu.

4. To built up macho 6-8-10 packs (whatever) body.

5. Deleted

6. To have my own "Self Employed" charity foundation.

7. To have "Gift of gab" one day. (Find it out if you don't know the meaning of the phrase)

8. To love & to be loved by the people in my Fav. list

9.****************************(Too personal to publish on blog..And a lil weird too...sorry)

That completes my list. I want to repeatedly reminces myself my "To do" list to sustain my lingering purpose for life.I have conciously manifested to keep the wish list limited. Too long list can kep you uncontented & smaller one can endanger your purpose/aim for life. That's my ideology without being judgemental. What u have to say?????

As You sow, so shall you reap.....???

This has been quite a week of sufferings and recouping from injuries. I have rare accidents in my life. My life generally is not yo-yoing having extremes. (Life too had became a nerd like me!) But Sunday's evening was different.....Nasty accident was waiting for me. On empty road I saw one old man lying with his sooter down. (Probably would have rolled off the pothole....its common in my town, anybody could have guessed given there was no one else) Old man was also waiting for someone to come to help & sympathise. My screwed luck made me to see the sight.

As a reponsible citizen I showed my chivalry to help the man get up. I leaned to pick up his scooter (whose engine was still on). The lever end of the handle was slightly pulled and rear wheel rolled over my left leg and the scooter was bashed with my pride possessed new Activa. Smashed the indicator. Before I could realise within dollops of seconds crowd gathered (funny accidents on roads always titillate more) and cocophony of scarstical sounds waved through my ears. It was a kind of clumsy situation (which often I land into) where I do not know what should I speak. Embarrassed (as if I abetted some murder) with my dumb act I moved quickly trying to avoid damn quetions from crowd. With creaky legs I went home & It reminded me of 9XM "Aur bangaya Bheegi Billi". Leg got swollen & middle finger of toe got almost fractured.

When I narrated the incident to friends they laughed on me (naturally!) This is the price one has to pay for being "goody". I guilted on my act to invite unwanted trouble. But the incident made be to muse..

What can be our reasons to help others?? ---Do we need to flatter god?? Do we want to earn meritious points so that can get good birth next incarnation?? Or just it is because fear of religion or washing sins?? I don't understand intricating "Karma na Sidhhant". I Act on anything what my conscience tell me (good or bad) That doen't mean to violate basic civics although I may be tempted. I act within my self and so doen't need to think benefits. To me, helping someone should come within. Although dumbass; follow your heart.On a lighter note ----

With my lame leg standing I enunciate the oath : "I Kairav Jasani, solemnly resolve & pledge in my full conciousness that I would persevere to help victims on roads & would choose to tread this radical path discharging my duty with devotion without expecting any favor (not even from beautiful girls --Oh Really???) even if it would cause me physical damage."

P.S : I am not here for giving any Guru Gyan, and if by any means you felt such.....Blame my writings.